You're not in love with me. Because of course, how can you be in love with someone who treats you like dirt unless you're a masochist. That's another offense and you deserve it as you're really worth nothing more than it. You just didn't see it because you were blinded by your obsession with the idea of falling in love and taking an affair towards the only direction you misconceptually know as relationship. And when you get it you'll eventually get tired of it cause you never really knew what you wanted out of it. And until you figure it out, every so called relationship you'll have will never last.